To Die Or Not To Die...

Hmm... i have been thinking, what do i want to make out of bodybuilding? Should i work harder and eat more to grow bigger? or should i just reach a suitable size and work on having a nicely toned body? Of cause it is easier said then done but i am confident that with positive attitude and focus, nothing is impossible.
In my mind, I still see myself and have the mentality that i am still the skinny small kid i used to be. Trying to grow bigger muscles until i am satisfied, which i am not sure when that will be. It's like being a sculptor, you can't just work on an area of what you are scuplting. The whole piece of art has to be perfect, if only bodybuilding was as easy as sculpting a figure of clay.